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I fuckin' hate it when I can't sleep I'm pacing the floor, I can't sleep, I hurt like hell...gah, nothing is going right for me... I can't really stay long at the computer, but long enough to take this quiz.
The mind-reading, short temper, red haired, German beauty! You are Schuldig, Mr. Popularity Extraordinare! You have so much potential to be a charming, witty, and alluring person!! However you delight in screwing other people over!!! This is all because it's all with in your power. You can read minds, make people do things they don't want to do. Telephathy and mind control is your stregnth and downfall..besides your impulsiveness and short-temper. You have a car, in which to drive farfarello around, and have the most annoying seiyuu alive! Your weiß counter is Youji, and unlike HIM..you are fashionable to some degree... all of this making YOU, probably the most drooled over Schwarz member. Which you deserve to be, because Farfie and Nagi are annoying as hell. No doubts there are those out there that would agree 100% with the more negative aspects of this assessment. I'll try to write more when I get in to work. toxic~~~~
A Good Monday It is a very good Monday for me. I'm in an extremely good mood. What can I say, I had a good weekend. Details might be forthcoming. [grin] That is, if you want to hear about my sex life...
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Time flies Too bad I'm not having any fun. The project is back breaking, but at least it's progressing. We should hopefully be wrapping things up by the end of next week. Then it's back to the normal grind. As if anything around work is normal these days. More politics than a Washington DC golf course...And the nastiness of them is in inverse proportion to the stakes involved. The smaller the stakes, the nastier it gets. Some people have no priority hierarchy or realistic sense of what's important. I had a falling out of sorts with a friend at work. Differing opinions between two strong personalities. I really didn't realize that he is as judgemental as he was and it kind of took me by surprise. For a lot of people, especially younger ones or people who have had no real hardship in their lives, it is very easy to sit in their perfect little idealistic world and Monday Morning Quarterback other people, their lives, the decisions they made (good and bad) and to pass judgement. But these same people, have't walked a mile in anyone elses shoes. Their world is painted in black and white, no areas of gray; an eye for an eye although they tout their liberal views of patience, love and acceptance. All or nothing. 0% or 100%. Either you are something or you're not. They paint onto the motivations of others, their personal ethics and morals of what "they" would do in a situation and act as judge and jury to someone who didn't do it the way they would have. It just doesn't work that way. And it gets tiresome. Don't fucking judge. Don't judge me, don't judge those people you disagree with, don't judge anyone. Because you apply your morals to someone else, and they may not have the same set of ethical rules that you live by. People make decisions for the things they do, even what seems to be the most trivial of things, and just because it makes no sense to you, doesn't mean that there isn't a deep motiviating reason behind it or that it is trivial to the person who made that decision. Do not assume that everyone in the world has access to the the same breaks in life as you do. That's just fucking naive. Today, I guess I just woke up angry. toxic~~~~
Back to the daily grind I finally made it in to work. They think they are going to keep me at my desk, and they would be mistaken. The doctor's appointment went as I figured it would. He wanted to put me on bed rest until Wednesday. I said no. We argured for half an hour. I can't afford to be away from work for very long, even though it is a workplace injury and all that. I don't want to lose the momentum I've built with the asbestos project. He finally relented and issued the back to work permit, but under stipulation that I stay at my desk. And he called medical here at work to ensure that they know that. I guess he figured I wasn't going to volunteer that information. They allowed me to return to work, wanting to enforce the desk duty thing. I'm fighting it. The nurse said I was incorrigible. I had to look it up. And I am not incorrigible. Stubborn, yes. Difficult, maybe. No lectures from the peanut gallery. Drew nagged me the entire way into work. I'm still going to work, I'm still going to be productive, and I'm still going to know my limits and respect them. Provided the wall no longer has any problems with me, we should get along fine and things should go smoothly. *~*~*~*~* I worked on my site yesterday. Reworked some of my jpg links. Trying to figure it all out. I will work more on it today and upload tonight. And tonight I plan on trying to get some of my images up too. *~*~*~*~* I've hit a writing dry spell. No inspiration for Haiku at all. Of course, I really haven't been taking the time to just sit for a bit. Even apartment bound, I was filling the time with nothing productive. Well, watching movies and anime, and I was able to spend some quality of time with Drew like I mentioned in an earlier entry. I managed to get emails written for family and that's about it. There really isn't anything to show that I've been...productive. toxic~~~~
It's called compromise... I promised not to whine if he would let me on the computer for just a little bit. So I get on the computer and there wasn't anyone around. Nothing really happening on the mailing lists. The mousefinger gets out of control and the next thing you know, I'm taking another online quiz.  How Gay Are YOU? [?] [laughs] Okay. How about something we don't already know? But, only 90%? Eh. I guess it makes sense. Are we really 100% anything? This result didn't surprise me much either... And now I've used up my allotted time doing nonsense stuff. Hope everyone is having a better day than me. toxic~~~~
GAH! I'm going fucking stir crazy! I can NOT tolerate much more of this sitting still bullshit! And it's a beautiful day today, too. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and I'm stuck INSIDE! My current jailer will not let me even go out to sit on the downstairs porch. Said something about worrying I'll run off to play basketball. The dictator is back, so even this has to end. [sulks] toxic~~~~
Sorry for the silence But it's going to last a bit longer. You see, this wall didn't like the way I looked and it got personal. To make a long, painful and extremely embarrassing story short, a sectional wall fell on me. The doc says I'm to stay off my feet until he sees me again on Monday. No walking, no prolonged sitting up, no working out, no running, no nocturnal activities... Yeah. Right. As if. Never fear, I have watchdogs keeping me still. I will fill my days with watching anime, movies and sleeping when I finally succumb to the pain meds. My current watchdog is due back at any time, so this is short. toxic~~~~
No entry, just a quiz  I'll post an entry when I'm up for it. toxic~~~~
What a beautiful day! God it is beautiful out today! Of course it helps to be in a reaaaaaallly good mood. Drew came over last night. Does that explain my liquid good mood? It should! [laughs] For those that are morbidly curious, yes we broke the bed in, right proper like. *~*~*~*~* Now, today's agenda, bike ride. The weather is nice. Think we are going to go grab a quick lunch to pack and head off, northwest NJ I think will be the goal today. Then its down to the "in-laws" for the rest of the weekend. Drew's parents do have internet access. His mother is a cooking fiend, and is on a couple of cooking ml's and boards. So while I don't feel comfortable "chatting" online, do note that I check my emails while there. I'm going to try to get pictures of my bike this weekend. I've been toying around with the idea of selling it. I'm pretty strapped right now in the cash department. At least until I can get the bed paid off. But the bike really means a lot to me. So much of my ego and self esteem is tied up in owning a bike. So I ultimately decided against it. I will suffer through. The tight spot won't last long hopefully. *~*~*~*~* Sorry that I didn't get on to chat last night, for those of you that might have been worried. (If you weren't, that's cool too) To be honest with you, I was in private chat. I had some things I wanted to unload that, well, the subject matter isn't for everyone. By that I mean, it's something that I'm not comfortable talking about generally. God that sounds so bad. I don't mean to imply that any of my friends wouldn't be supportive. They would. They are all very wonderful. I guess it's just a matter of comfort for me. There are details that I'm not sure I want my friends to know. Irrationally thinking that they might think less of me if they know them. It's more than just doin' time. It's the things that happened, that I did... And lets face it. It isn't an easy subject for me to talk about anyway. I hope everyone understands. Please be safe this US holiday weekend. Don't drink and drive. Drive slow, take it easy. toxic~~~~
Have a safe holiday
Hmmmm.... Please have a safe holiday this weekend! toxic~~~~
A quickie quiz
Geez, even with a headache and a sore throat... toxic~~~~
Feeling good Not much to say so this won't be long, except I am in an exceptionally good mood today. Last night, I talked to a good friend that I hadn't chatted with in ages. I, of course, felt like a heel for being so neglectful. But she, being the gem that she is, was so totally understanding. And it reminded me of why I liked her so much to try and begin a friendship with her in the first place. It was good chatting with you, Cissy. And while my mood was mostly melancholic last night, my friends, ever wonderful kept my attitude in check, salvaging my mood, keeping it upbeat. Thanks guys. toxic~~~~
Another test
 Definitely one of the lesser known of mythical bests, you are described as having the head and legs of a cock, the body of a serpent, and the wings of a bat (although there are wingless varieties). You were the blame of hundreds of thousands of deaths in the middle ages. Your breath and even gaze was deadly. Hundreds of basilisk hunts were organized to get rid of you. The hunters would carry mirrors so that, if they encountered you, they would have you look in the mirror and destroy yourself! Weasels were also reputed to be able to kill you, as they could resist your deadly gaze. You were a potent symbol of death and in some cultures the embodiment of Death himself. In Christianity, the Basilisk was linked with Satan. Why am I not surprised? toxic~~~~ |
